Plans for the future, as they are this particular Sunday.
It took me about an hour to tidy up after my party today. That’s not much, so I still had a lot of time to spend. I thought I’d go out for a bit, but I stayed in and thought about my plans for the future.
Those people who know what they want to do with their lives are very lucky. I’ve been trying to come up with ways to have music and playing/singing as a part of my everyday life, without having it as my job. I haven’t been sure about what kind of education I should get. I thought it was music. Even though I’m still unsure of what I want to become, I’ve learnt that what I have to offer musically is my style, my songs and my voice in that context. There will always be someone who’s better, who masters more genres than I do, who’s more suited for a job, more musical, more everything. But no one can interfere with my own music, of course they might find it uninteresting, but the music is the way it is. I haven’t been writing for long, either. I did write a lot some years ago, but I just started again this spring, and I have so much to learn. I couldn’t base my life on something that unstable, but I could spend my free time playing with friends. In shabby pubs. I’d love it. We’d play a first set, have a beer, and then play some more. It would be good.
These thoughts make me hopeful. Let’s just say that that’s my future. Just for today.
